Monday, March 29, 2010

Invisible Teacher

The invisible teacher is my beloved spiritual guide. He is all-powerful, all-knowing, and immune to every human failing. I know now that the invisible teacher is real. He's been with me all along. If you have ever sincerely intended to accomplish the great work, the goal of the spiritual alchemists, then the invisible teacher is with you also. When the student is ready, the invisible teacher appears.

The instruction of the invisible teacher is as hard as you can bear. It is perfectly tailored to your spiritual needs. He can and will do whatever it takes to awaken you. Whatever it takes. No living teacher could do what the invisible teacher can. The invisible teacher can mold reality itself. He can take any form, or none at all. The invisible teacher can work with, or through, a living teacher, but he doesn't have to. He can arrange ordeals that would get a living teacher thrown in jail. Progress under his tutelage is maximally accelerated.

You can't fool or lie to the invisible teacher. He knows everything about you. In a sense, he is you, or rather he will be, when your consciousness has been purged of all the dross of false ego and illusion. In the mean time, the invisible teacher is revealed in stages. At first, he is not known, except as a deeply felt longing for union. But he is far from aloof. His assistance is in perfect proportion to your aspiration. In time, the invisible teacher is revealed by the fruit of his work. As this realisation dawns, you start to see that there are no misfortunes, no punishments, only lessons not yet learned. Full-blown pronoia sets in. It really is all good, no matter how awful it seems.

At some point, the invisible teacher started communicating with me directly. I suppose that had been the case all along, but I didn't understand and/or wasn't listening. It's easy to get in the habit of constantly asking questions without pausing to hear the answers. You can't ask and listen at the same time. It's hard to describe just how this communication occurs. For me, it isn't verbal/audible. Sometimes, it comes through a metaphorical interpretation of reality. In this communication mode, the invisible teacher often displays a wonderful sense of humour. Other times, I just know things (clairsentience). Information seems to down-load itself into awareness. It doesn't feel like I am the source of it, but neither does it's source feel separate from me. It comes from a realm beyond those categories (as does the invisible teacher himself). A third way is a kind of "highlighting". I'll read, hear, or otherwise notice something, and it will be accompanied by a sense of, "This is important. Look deeper."

The loving presence of the invisible teacher is something I cannot doubt anymore. It is in the same category of certainty as, "I exist". That said, I don't know who or what the invisible teacher really is. He could be the Universe, Infinite Awareness, the Holy Guardian Angel, or perhaps the other half of my soul. I do know that I trust him absolutely. Our bond is deeply personal. It has a romantic/sexual tone, based as it is on a powerful and mutual desire for union. That's why I've been calling the invisible teacher "he". The gender designation isn't real but it is metaphorically appropriate. We will be One. This I know. It is inevitable, even if it takes a thousand lives. (But it won't.) ;) It is up to me to set a date for the alchemical wedding and I have no intention of waiting that long.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Symbolism and The Control System

There is practically no subject more rife with misunderstanding and disinformation than that of symbolism. I know this because I understand symbolic language on a conscious level. And symbolism is a language. It is right-brain language. The language of symbols is universal and it is understood by your sub-conscious mind, whether you're aware of it or not.

I began learning the language of symbolism when I was about twelve years old. My introduction to the subject was by way of astrology. I'm also familiar with mythology, the Tarot, Runes, Qabalah and numerology. Fortunately, I did not get my knowledge via the internet. There is an old game called "Grapevine" or "Telegraph". The way the game works is: you get a group of people arranged in a circle. One person starts the round by whispering a message in the ear of the next person. Then they do likewise until it returns to the person who began. Usually, the message has been changed. A great deal of the information that one finds on the internet relating to symbolism has been subjected to a similar process of distortion. It's not that accurate information isn't there. It's more that it is buried under a mountain of ignorance and flat out lies. The situation on youtube is much, much worse. That source is beyond useless. My partner, GodIAm, collects youtube videos for his site, so I end up watching a lot of them. I know he's searched high and low for information on the subject of symbolism. I also know that most of what he's found is worthless or worse.

The movie, Zeitgeist, is a good example. Most of it was fairly accurate, but the introductory section on religion and it's roots in pagan symbolism, was filled with errors and misrepresentations. Recently, GodIAm found this video: The Dawn of A New Day. As I listened to it, I grew more and more disturbed by what Jordan Maxwell was implying. This person is widely considered an expert! I prefer to give people the benefit of the doubt, so I'm not going to state whether this misinformation is deliberate or not. I checked out Maxwell's website and he claims to have been the source of the Zeitgeist info. No surprise there.

So, what is really going on here? Remember what I said in the opening paragraph. Symbolism is universal right-brain language. The fact that most people do not consciously understand it, means that it can be used to manipulate them without their knowledge. In "The Dawn of A New Day", Maxwell spends over an hour exposing the use of certain symbols (mainly Solar) by the control system. Some of his attributions are wrong, but that's not what I found most disturbing. It was the implication that these symbols belong to the control system. They don't. The Solar symbols are obsessively used by the control system. That is true. But why? I'll tell you. They use them for much the same reason that beautiful women are a staple of car ads, for the same reason politicians pose for photo ops with babies. They want you to associate the symbols with them. Jordan Maxwell, intentionally or not, is doing the control system's work for them.

Sun Symbolism:

All of these are solar symbols:

The Sun is a symbol of your spiritual centre. It represents your true I. It is the source of light and life. In the hermetic Qabala, the Sun is related to the 6th Sephiroth called Tiphareth (translated, beauty), the Christ centre. In the body, this centre corresponds to the heart chakra. Every time you see these symbols, that is how your subconscious understands them. Now do you see why the control system constantly uses them? They want you to confuse their group with your spiritual centre so you will unconsciously give them spiritual authority. It's a double whammy actually, because should you, through long association, start to develop a hostile reaction to the symbols, you will also be inclined to reject that which they truly represent.

The All-seeing Eye:

Spoken language is derived from symbolic language and incorporates some of it's features. Symbolic content is to be found in the order, shape and sound vibration of letters and words, and also shows up in the form of puns, anagrams and homonyms. It is not a coincidence that "eye" and "I" sound the same. Both represent means of perception. Humans have two eyes/I s. (see: If Thine I Be Single) The right and left eyes symbolise two different ways of perceiving, one holistic/symbolic (right-brain/left eye) and the other is atomistic/literal (left-brain/right eye). There are a number of myths related to eyes. In Egyptian mythology, the eyes of Horus are associated with the Sun and Moon. There are several versions of a myth wherein one or both of his eyes are torn out by Set. They are restored after Set's defeat.
In Norse mythology, the god Odin sacrifices one of his eyes in order to drink from the well of Mimir (wisdom).
And of course there is this in the Bible:
"And if thine eye offend thee, pluck it out: it is better for thee to enter into the kingdom of God with one eye, than having two eyes to be cast into hell fire:" (Mark 9:47)
And this:
"The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light." (Matthew 6:22)
The single, all-seeing eye represents either the spiritual Self or the false ego, depending on who you ask.

Knowledge is power. If you don't understand the language of symbols, your ability to access right-brain perception is severely restricted. Your intuition doesn't develop as it should. Your energy can be used by others without your knowledge or consent. That's why it isn't taught in schools. That's why there is so much scare-mongering and disinformation. Because of this, even people with the best of intentions end up perpetuating ignorance and fear. Don't fall for it. If you think you can free yourself from the control system with half a brain, well, good luck to you. You will need it.

Recommended reading:

"777" and "The Book of Thoth" - Aleister Crowley
"777" consists mainly of tables of correspondences between symbols. The Book of Thoth is about the Tarot.
"The Qabalistic Tarot"- Robert Wang
The parallels between the Qabalistic "Tree of life" and the Tarot point to a common source. This is an excellent book for learning the Qabala system if you are already familiar with the Tarot, or vice versa.
"Leaves of Yggdrasil" - Freya Aswynn
"The Book of Runes" - Ralph Blum
Of these two, "Leaves of Yggdrasil" is the best I've read. "The Book of Runes" is a simple and high-quality introduction.
"A Dictionary of Symbols" - J.E. Cirlot
"The Mystical Qabalah" - Dion Fortune

Internet resources:
Valkyrie Astrology
I'll add more as I find them.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

To Be Real

The other day I got into an entertaining, but ultimately unresolved debate with my partner about whether or not other people are real. (What can I say; it's the sort of thing that can happen when you cancel your TV.) A constellation of synchronous, symbolic themes had brought me to the point where I found myself seriously asking that question. They might seem unconnected at first glance. Here's the list.
1. Zombies
My partner and my son have been playing "Call of Duty; World at War". For some weeks now, they've been playing in a bonus mode of the game, in which all the enemy soldiers are zombies. Zombies are a disturbingly apt metaphor for the deeply unconscious mass of humanity. The consensus on zombies is that there is no cure, or if there is, it in no way depends on the zombies themselves.
2. A recent visit from Psychegram
Psychegram is like the polar opposite of a zombie. People like him are so extremely rare that I had forgotten what proximity to such a high-frequency auric field felt like. I am very sensitive to energy fields, which is why I need copious amounts of solitude. I've learned from experience that when opposite poles (ie. themes 1 and 2) show up in maximum contrast like this, it's something I should pay attention to.
3. The concept of the Omega_point
The "Omega point" is Teilhard de Chardin's name for the transcendent object to which humanity is drawn through the process called evolution. He develops this idea in "The Phenomenon of Man". In it, he identifies the 5 attributes of the Omega point. He posits that the Omega point must be both preexistent and inevitable. In order for this to be the case, the future must already be fixed. Which brings us to...
4. Backward causation in time
According to this theory, the characteristics of the past and present are determined by the requirements of the future. The Omega point would operate like a tractor beam, pulling us toward it. If this were the case, we'd expect randomness to decrease rapidly as the Omega point drew closer. Synchronicities would increase. Free will and the hand of fate would eventually converge and become indistinguishable from one another. The number of possible time-lines that could lead to the Omega point from any node of consciousness would ultimately be reduced to one. This process is evident in my own experience and that of many others. On the other hand, no such development is perceptible in the population at large. If anything, the reverse is occurring.

So what about the zombie hoards, or sheeple? The approaching Omega point doesn't seem to have much, if any, effect on them. Attempts to engage their awareness are almost always futile. In fact, they behave exactly like dream characters. When you dream, most of the "others" who occupy your dreamscape have no independent reality. They are purely reflections of the dreamer's psyche. I say most, because it occasionally happens that a "real" person or unincarnate being makes an appearance within the dream. It's pretty rare, but when it happens, you notice. Meeting Psychegram was like that.

What if there are actually far fewer "real" people than there seem to be? When I suggested the possibility to my partner, he rejected it right away on the grounds that it reflected separation. I don't think it does, since there is still only one Infinite Awareness taking an indeterminate number of "points of view". It's just that there are also a large number of imaginary characters who exist as reflections for the much smaller number with the potential to become Self-aware.

After all, we are not bodies or personalities. Those are vehicles for what we really are, which is nodes of condensed awareness. Ideally, human beings have the potential to become Self-aware, but it doesn't automatically follow that all of them will. Take the analogy of a very advanced video game in which any character whatsoever could be played. The game might include zombies, right? The zombies might enhance the game play, but the entertainment value in playing a zombie character would be nearly zero. They are just too limited. All they can do is stumble around in packs trying to eat the non-zombies. They can't even get better at it. So no one would bother playing a zombie even though they could. Since sheeple essentially behave like zombies, why would an awareness with an evolutionary agenda want to play those characters? Maybe they exist to enhance the game play, by serving as our reflections. I'm not saying that their well-being doesn't matter. If our reflections are in conflict or suffering, then we must also be so. When we heal ourselves, our reflections will automatically move toward wholeness. They may even become worth playing.

What difference does it make, whether other people are "real" or not? As far as how we treat them, it doesn't matter at all. But in the matter of evolutionary strategy, it does. If every human being on earth had to awaken to Omega point through their own choice and intention, then no effort should be spared to help them. But let's face it. If that's the case, we're screwed. If they wanted help in that regard, they wouldn't need it so badly. And if they don't want help, they won't accept it. A strategy that can't succeed is not worth pursuing.
If the sheeple are more like dream characters, then all our energy should go towards awakening ourselves and one another. As we do, the dream characters will necessarily reflect that. I know this might sound elitist but it isn't, because "real" people are self-chosen, just as in "The Matrix", Neo was not "the One" until he decided to be. We are close enough to Omega point now, that all (or almost all) of those who will awaken already know who they are. I consider myself infinitely blessed to know so many of you. You have been a great help and comfort to me. I love you dearly. Whatever I can give you is my joy and honour. I'm done with trying to awaken the deeply unconscious ones, though. I intend to put my brain to a better use than zombie food.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

You Can't Do That

I've always been fascinated by taboos. Most taboos cannot be convincingly defended on the grounds of natural morality or reason. Their sole purpose seems to be the maintenance of social order. In other words, control. One of the things they do is condition us to accept arbitrary restrictions.

Some taboos, particularly apparel and food-related ones, seem to be about maintaining the separation between Us and Them. These ones usually go way back and are attributed to the will of some supernatural authority. I don't put any store in such things but I can see why others would. What I find really weird are those taboos maintained by supposedly secular societies like mine. These somehow manage to persist unquestioned even when they directly conflict with professed social values. I am referring to our taboos concerning female sexuality and drugs.

Female sexuality

Modern secular societies claim to reject the belief that women are inferior, flawed and in need of control. Yet when it comes to sexuality, old habits die hard. It is still considered totally acceptable to despise women who don't toe the line sexually. There are lots of names for women like that. I don't need to repeat them. A double standard is persisted in by both sexes. Women who neglect, or refuse, to cloak their sexuality are openly sneered at, even by many who believe themselves liberated. Women who are overtly sexual are widely considered to have no self-respect. It seems to me that there is a reversal of cause and effect here. At the very least it's a negative feed-back loop. This is not a minor thing. It is a source of deep shame and loathing for all women, whether they are conscious of it or not.
It's an old story and we all know it well. Boy meets girl. Boy and girl are turned on by one another and act on it. The next morning boy loses all respect for girl because she's clearly a slut or she would have said no. Eventually boy meets a "nice" girl, marries her, and then spends the rest of his life complaining about her lack of sexual generosity, even though that's what made her acceptable in the first place.
In abuse counselling, this is what's known as "crazy-making behavior". I realised what the game was pretty early on and promised myself that I would not play. Actually, I went further than that and deliberately flouted "the rules" as a matter of principle. I did it for myself. I made a conscious decision to give the finger to all who would have me live in shame. I'm glad I did. I have no wish to be romantically involved with someone who can't respect me as I am. If I am to be despised, I'd just as soon have it in the open instead of festering in my subconscious.
It doesn't matter how many laws are passed or affirmative actions taken. Any professed commitment to feminine equality will remain a joke as long as this taboo persists. Venus/Aphrodite is a powerful and valid archetype in the feminine psyche. The next time you encounter a women embodying it, please consider honouring her right instead of muttering "whore" under your breath.


Drug use is a new taboo. It's pedigree goes back no more than a century or so. Like most taboos, it's all about control. I've used "drugs" regularly for most of my life. Their influence is hard to overestimate. There is a great experiential gulf between those who use them and those who don't. Let's be clear about what we're talking about here. By "drugs" I mean substances that have the primary effect of altering one's experience of reality.

My parents were drug users. I grew up in a home where weed was smoked often. It did not have any negative effect on the quality of parenting I received. When "under the influence", my parents and their friends were more relaxed and talkative. That's all. (My partner was much less fortunate. His parents were alcoholics.) They occasionally used other drugs as well, but not around us kids. I first smoked weed when I was 15 with a couple of slightly older friends. I remember a great deal of giggling and a whole new level of music appreciation. When I was 16, and living in Victoria, my best friend and I were offered an opportunity to try LSD. We took half a hit of blotter each, and our friend (who gave it to us) abstained in order to baby-sit and entertain us. He took us on a day trip to Vancouver and drove us around the city, visiting and sightseeing. It was probably the most fun I've ever had. Our friend had an eight-track tape player in his car and only one decent tape. So we listened to Nazareth's Greatest Hits all day. Every time I hear Nazareth, I'm reminded of that magical day. We laughed so much our sides and cheeks ached. With LSD, unlike sex, the first time usually is the best. I tried a bunch of other things later on. I was reckless and very lucky. I never injected or got addicted to anything (except tobacco, but that isn't really considered a drug). Some people I knew were not so fortunate. There are some drugs I don't use and consider intrinsically harmful. Those would be the ones that are physically addictive and/or highly toxic. The substances I do use and consider beneficial or harmless (when used responsibly) are: weed, mushrooms, LSD, ecstasy, and all traditional shamanic sacraments. There are still some things I haven't tried, but intend to.

Mind-altering substances are taboo in most modern societies. Few people bother to ask why. "Drugs are dangerous", we're told. Well some are and some aren't. Why are they all lumped together as though this were not the case? And why is an exception made for alcohol? Alcohol is more dangerous than most drugs. Lots of things are, including down-hill skiing and automobile racing and logging. "Drugs are dangerous" is bullshit, comparable to "They hate our freedoms". The real reason drugs are taboo is that they show you a different reality. This is also their greatest benefit, in my opinion. A great deal of our "reality" is programmed, much more than most people realise. If you had nothing to compare it to, you wouldn't even think to question it. Once you have something to compare it to, you can and very often do. It's like in astrology. The reason we can identify the planetary vibrations is by comparison. They show up differently in different patterns. But what is the vibration of Earth? You can't see it because it is pervasive. You would be able to, if you had a selection of natal charts for people born on the moon, or Mars. There are aspects of our programmed "reality" that do not stand up to questioning. That's why drugs are banned.
For instance, the prohibition of marijuana is impossible to justify on any grounds except mind-control. Compared to alcohol, it's effects are very mild. Marijuana is like a magnifying glass. It focuses your attention and increases sensitivity. Any experience that isn't intrinsically unpleasant becomes more enjoyable. Values shift toward the sensual and aesthetic. Seriousness is decreased and one's sense of humour is more easily triggered. Authority and status lose their importance. "Because I said so" no longer seems like a good reason to obey orders. Aggression is reduced. Violence and conflict are seen as undesirable.
The new reality that marijuana reveals can upset your programming. It is incompatible with military values. It makes authoritarian rule more difficult. It also interferes with the status consciousness and dissatisfaction that drive economic growth. These are the real reasons weed is illegal. The powers that be don't want you smoking pot because it makes you harder for them to control. Obviously they can't tell you that, because then you might ask what right they have to control you. Everybody knows that can of worms is best left unopened.

The taboo against drugs is so strong that even some people who use them are affected by it. People who should really know better often uphold elitist and puritanical views. One example is the push to legalise pot on medical grounds. At least some of the medical marijuana proponents, if they're honest, will admit that it's really a stepping stone on the way to full acceptance (but not all). I've also heard a lot of people insist that psychedelics can have spiritual value but abhor their recreational use. There seems to be a need to justify them. Why? The fact that using drugs is enjoyable should be sufficient. (I was going to preface that last sentence with, "In the absence of real harm", but I decided not to, since so many legal forms of entertainment are no less potentially harmful.) I don't see why it has to be either/or. I don't feel the least bit bad about dropping a few hits of acid and then spending my trip enjoying a bubble bath and some great tunes with my beloved.
There's this assumption that normal consciousness is more in touch with "reality" than drug-induced altered states. I'd beg to differ. If it were, humanity wouldn't be in such a mess. Clearly, normal consciousness is not immune to distortions of reality. Quite the opposite. It is what allows some of the most serious and dangerous distortions to remain intact. It's all about control.